I hope you all had a good day. I had a pretty good day. I just want to know from all of you that have lost a parent, how did it effect you? Even though we know if they are suffering, it
is for the best if they pass away. I find myself afterwards being mad at the fact that they had to suffer at all. My mother was in a wheelchair and dependant on everyone for the last 17 months of her life. In her last weeks, she could not get out of bed because she had broken bones in her back, she asked to go the bathroom, we told her the nurse will be in with the bedpan. She cried outloud, I don't want a bedpan, I want to go into the bathroom like I use too. That just killed me. She wanted to keep her dignity as long as she could. Her mind wanted to do things that her body could not. Which made it even harder. On the day of her funeral I was ok, until I came home and started folding clothes, all of a sudden a pain came over me both physically and mentally that I have never felt before, I realized I would never see her again. That was the most painful feeling I have ever felt in my life.