Hi Everyone, To be honest this is how I feel these days. I don't think my dreams will ever come true. The more I try the more I feel I'm shoveling shit against the tide. I'm not gonna bore you with details, but simply put, not being able to drive limits the jobs I can apply for, so no work means not being able to pay my student loans, which means default, which means no going back to college for a Master's Degree. Not being able to get a job also means I can't help my husband and family out cause now he is running out of work! I am at the point, like many of the unemployed, that I don't even want to bother applying for another job because it will probably be just another rejection, "Thank you for applying, but we have chosen another candidate for this position" So I might as well line up at Welfare, forget about becoming anything in this lifetime. Somedays it is hard to do this blog anymore, I feel so uninspired. I have always loved to inspire others, have hope for the future, but it's hard too give it out to others when you begin to lose it yourself. The only thing that keeps me going these days is my family. What keeps me going on this blog is my commenters. For that I am grateful.
Thanks for visiting and reading my vent,
Janet :)
Me, I'm a part of your circle of friends
And we notice you don't come around
Me, I think it all depends on you
Touching ground with us but
I quit, I give up, nothing's good enough
for anybody else, It seems
And I quit, I give up, nothing's good enough
for anybody else,It seems!!
And being alone is the best way to be
When I'm by myself it's the best way to be
When I'm all alone it's the best way to be
When I'm by myself, nobody else can say goodbye
Everything is temporary anyway
When the streets are wet, the colors slip
into the sky
But I don't know why that means you and I are,
that means you and I
I quit, I give up, nothing's good enough
for anybody else,It seems
And I quit I give up, nothing's good enough
for anybody else, It seems
And being alone is the best way to be
When I'm by myself, it's the best way to be
When I'm all alone, it's the best way to be
When I'm by myself, nobody else can say
Sorry to read that you are going through hard times :( But do not despair. It is ok at times to take brakes, to sit back and vent... often those small actions will re-charge our will to follow our dreams... Yes, those little dreams that burn inside us like small candles, often blown out from strong winds, but as long as we choose to believe in them, they are sheltered from any storm, they warm our hearts and become our beacons in very dark moments... You'll be in my prayers Janet, I wish that things will swiftly turn in your liking! :) Churchill said: "If you're going through hell, keep going!" it's the only way to get through it right?
ReplyDeleteThank you Anonymous, I appreciate your kind words, I like your analogy of the candles and the saying from Churchill, so true,
ReplyDeleteThanks again,
Janet :)
Janet I sent u a message .. Couldn't fit it in comment box. I am with ya babe! I wanted to go back to school too but in cannot pay loans either. Husband finally got job after 2 years but still things so tough. That is why I have to read that poem often, gives me hope and hope it does for u too. Cheer up girl! It will turn around . My mom and dad were always right. Now I'm happy to admit it.
ReplyDeleteKathy
Hang in there, Janet - there's too much to you to let the circumstances knock you off the rails!
ReplyDeleteIn the end, we have life, and the people that we love and who love us. You've come through deeper shit before now ...
Thank you Francis, I needed to be reminded of that, even though I keep telling myself the same as you said, some days it just gets overwhelming! But in the long run it is people like you that keep me inspired, thanks again so much!
ReplyDeleteThank you Katheen, I did get your poem on facebook and it made my day. I'm sorry to hear you are going through the same struggle. I have never expected life to be easy but just how hard does it have to get already LOL!! Thank you for writing to me today you helped lift my spirits and I will read that poem more often to keep me going :) Remember too that I'm always here for you if you need to talk or vent :)
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