Hi Everyone,
I hope you are all doing well, I am doing good. At this time in my life everything is going so good, I am so happy to be going away to Aruba with my hubby. Pete and I have reconnected in such a loving way now that the kids have grown up. We sit together every night and tell each other how much we love each other and we also have alot of laughs together. I look forward to going back to College and getting my Master's Degree. I also love being a grandmother. Briana is such a ray of sunshine because Christa and Dana are doing such a good job as parents. Yet I find myself lately crying for my Mom and Dad . I thought I cried myself out already for my Dad who passed away when I was 23 years old. My mother I lost only last year. I think now that I just want them here to enjoy their grandchildren. They would have been young enough to do that. I have just realize that grief just comes in waves and then flows away. I was driving the other day and listening to one of my favorite songs my Dave Matthews, Two Step and in the song he say's Oh my love do you think we could last forever if not for our flesh and bones. It just hit me that day how much I miss holding my Mother's hand, and everything else about her that I was consumed with tears. I am sure that you have all been there if you have lost your Parents. I wrote this poem for all of us.
Thanks for visiting my blog today,
Take care,
Janet :)
Grief in Waves
Today my heart aches,
I miss you mom and dad.
You should still be here,
It is not fair
Time does not take away,
the pain when your spirit went
on it's way. I know the Angels
were with you. I wish I could have
been too.
Not knowing what your experienced
at that time, haunts my mind. I hope
your passing was peaceful, as in
your life that was not fulfilled.
As I go forward in life, I still
miss you by my side.
Some day's are harder
than others. Being without
the love of my Father and Mother.
I carry on with the belief, that
you are watching over me.
I hope you hear my laughter
and my cries when I miss
your loving hearts, knowing
some day we will again never
be apart.
That is such a beautiful poem Janet. Thank you so much for sharing it.
ReplyDeleteI see waves of grief to remind me that I have a warm soul, willing to admit love, loss, and growth. Sending love your way Janet!
ReplyDeleteIt is a beautiful poem Janet. i lost my dad completely unexpected when I was 17. He was only 52.
ReplyDeleteMy mom was 79 but her death was a shock too. The DR.'s had said 6 months to 2 years and she died the next week. I was only 37.
I know the waves of grief very well. But, as time goes by they do come less often and then a truly magical thing happens.
You seem to forget all of the bad things, the mistakes made, the illnesses or addictions, and you only remember the love and the good times that were shared.
Sending you much love and a great big hug!!
Jackie:-)
That is a wonderful poem, a touching tribute to your parents. As much as I sometimes wish my parents would just leave me be to live my own life, I know I'm lucky that they are still with me us. Thanks for reminding me of that. I'm very sorry that you're parents are no longer with you. I am so glad that you are doing well otherwise though.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Jane