Hi Everyone, Hope your all doing well, I am feeling so angry and frustrated with my life today, to the point I just can't help but sit and cry, I haven't even felt like blogging which is not like me. I thought I would be in such a different place than I am when I turn 47 next month. Yet I find myself still with so many obstacles to overcome that I just don't want to. I've had enough of them already. So I thought I would share this song with all of you who have these days like me. As hard as I try to always be positive and upbeat, reality hits me across the face sometimes and I have to just Breathe until I find my strength again.
Thanks for visiting my blog,
Love ya,
Janet :)
I know Janet. I know.
ReplyDeleteEvery morning, I am grateful that I don't just end it all. Work, hubby, kids, traffic. It's ridiculous. My hubby threw a temper tantrum last Monday because I didn't jump up when he gave me a look when the laundry was done. I was like WTF. A young hottie spanish guy that works in my building at the office is 23, and sent me a facebook message saying, now that you found me, what will you do with me? Jan, I hate to say it, but just the thought has kept me alive these past few days. Why is life such a damn chore for some of us? Now on a Saturday, all the chores are done, dinner in the oven, and I still feel like WTF.
Here is the only thing that I can figure out.
I want to get past this. I have been 100% sober since December, and life still sucks. But I am still sober. That's an accomplishment. Perhaps it will take a little longer to find out my role in this damn life.
You make me smile though. Your hubby at least looks at your blog. I could post a sex video with that latin stud, and he would never know.
Smiling yet.. OOOH PAPI!
Hi Kimmy, I read your comment and my jaw just dropped, I swear your my long lost twin. I know the struggle your going through, your husband sounds like mine. God knows it is hard enough to keep a marriage together, especially after 27 yrs. I don't know what will happen in your case, but be honest with your feelings and follow your heart.Things are good now, but I still fear it will get back to that place, hopefully not. Thank you sooo much for your comment, your friendship and honesty has always meant the world to me, now it does even more each time we talk. Know I am always here for you without Judgement and nothing but understanding as you have been for me. You make me smile and laugh too all the time :)
ReplyDeleteYour friend for life,
Janet :)
September 11, 2010 11:10 PM