Don't Look Back

Hi Everyone, I hope you are doing well. I am doing good. I found myself looking back a few days ago about my life, losing my mothers, looking back on decisions I made. What should I have done, what should I have not done. Then I remembered a saying that made so much sense to me. If you look in the rear view mirror for to long or you will crash. How many of us go through this, not that we want to but it is a habit. It is so easy to look back and want to change or fix the outcome. We have to surrender to the fact that life will happen no matter how we try to control it. So the next time you find yourself in this place, meditate either informally or formally and try to retrain those old tapes. "May I live in the present", "May I forgive myself for the past if needed", "May I focus on the good and not the bad memories." With each regret,or lesson ask yourself what it may have taught you, forgive, forget, and move on.
Take Care,
Janet :)

Engulfed by Grief

Hi Everyone,
I hope you are all doing well. I am doing pretty good. A week ago today I attended a memorial service for my neighbor Hedi. Hedi was only 37 years old. Last October she went to the hospital for a pain in her chest. It wound up being linked to a few brain tumors. When they discovered this it was already to late. She left behind a son who is only 11 years old and her husband. I have been overwhelmed in the past two years with death and disease all around me, my best friend Sue gone at 59yrs old, Wendy 52yrs old, My mother and mother in law 5 months apart and just a couple of weeks ago two people I cared for at the village only two days apart only 31 and 59. Being a spiritual person I am trying to figure out what this is teaching me. I usually think it is teaching me how precious life is, but I already know that. Is it to teach me to take better care of myself??? I am already working on that. There must be something else, some lesson that will come out of all this grief and loss. I know as you get older you begin to lose more people in your life. In this case though alot of them were too young. Whatever the lesson though it is a hard learned one.
Thanks for visiting my blog today.
Janet :)